11.18.2008

Pretty amazing

First, thank you to everyone for your kind wishes and congratulations. As I am so very very far away from family and friends, you're support means the world to me.

Yesterdays surprise news finally sunk in at 4am this morning when I woke up out of a dead sleep and couldn't return to sound slumber. I have a hard time believing I could be a mother at all, let alone a mother of twins. When I let myself go there and visualize the reality of it, the images take my breath away--literally.

Max, on the other hand, is nothing but joyous, bursting into what I can only describe as some sort of "Walk Like and Egyptian dance" every time he thinks about our pregnancy. After all, this twin thing is all his doing, you know--a result of his super Egyptian, pharaohesque sperm.

Right now, aside from breast tenderness and a new penchant for afternoon naps, I feel great and would hardly believe I was pregnant if it weren't for the successive ultrasound images posted on my refrigerator. All I can say is we're feeling a certain sense of happy bemusement at it all, which has even seemed to lighten the serious demeanor of my doctor. When he saw the images on the ultrasound, all he could do was smile and say "life can be pretty amazing."

Pretty amazing, indeed.

Of course, all the caveats still exist. It's early. I'm high risk and, now, only higher. Some might think I should not reveal the secrets of my pregnancy so early, especially when the potential for problems is so great. But I find being open here, in this little space, with you a cathartic experience. And who knows? Maybe all of this--my diary of expat life, fertility challenges, and pregnancy-- might actually benefit someone someday. Especially after my first miscarriage, I also realized there is no shame in losing a pregnancy. It's no ones fault and, with the exception of purposeful or reckless behavior, totally out of the realm of human control.

I know the challenges and risk ahead. Trust me, I do. But for today, I choose to revel in the fact that I am the mother-to-be of two. And no matter, that's a pretty terrific thing.

33 comments:

headbang8 said...

Mother of two rather lucky little Spaniards-to-be, no less!

Jill said...

It was around week 7 that the wave of morning sickness (which should really be called all-day-sickness) hit. Oh yeah, and the hooker boobs reared their heads... up 2 bra sizes in 2 weeks. Holy crazy batman.

Fantastic news again - I'm so glad to follow along in your journey!

michelle of bleeding espresso said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!! Sorry I missed the announcement, but I'm confident the excitement is still just as strong ;)

Me said...

So rooting for you guys and the Mastersperm! Impressive.


Note to self: Find Egyptian man.

CHECK :)

C N Heidelberg said...

I am so, so, so, so, so, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited for you guys!!!!!!!!!

traveler one said...

With your awesome attitude everything's going to be great!

Xavierism said...

Congrats filled with Love & Joy!

I'm thrilled for the both of you.

Suvii said...

OMG, OMG, OMG... I am beyond thrilled for you Diane!!!! What an amazing gift and for two people so, so deserving! I wish you so much health during your pregnancy for you and the little ones! I am so so so so happy for you!

Jamy said...

This is so great. I'm so happy for you. I really do need to come for a visit and soon, don't I?

Simple Answer said...

Terrific indeed!

Princess Extraordinaire said...

I am elated for you and Max!! Congratulations!

Lynda said...

Celebrate the NOW.. no point worrying about the past - that is gone.. and the present is unknown.. so go for it..do the dance ...

American in Norway said...

Ok I miss like ONE day...& your having twins? Congratulations... I am still sitting here like a giant pretzel with everything crossed for you.... Keep us posted... You have got to be on cloud 9...

Connie said...

I am so thrilled with your happy news! Twins! Wow!! And, you have such a positive attitude, even about the dangers.. but such is the case with all pregnancies, some get more, some less, risk, but it's always there. I had a friend who told me she thought of her miscarriages as visitations from her son's soul. It took him several tries before he was really ready to commit to joining them. I can't speak from personal experience, but I loved her interpretation. Keep us updated. You, Max, and those new little olives in your martini glass will stay in my prayers :-)

Fabi Yvette said...

I'm speechless...really...I mean, I only think I "know" you and it's all through this blog world but I am incredibly happy for you. Congratulations!

Hugs,

Fabi

Vodka Mom said...

damn! no more martinis. I"ll just have to drink for the both of us.


(I am SOO happy for you!!)

TamWill said...

My daughter sent me an email "DIANE IS HAVING TWINS!!" and it left me speechless and very excited for you! Your life is one exciting journey after the next!

hmm on a sad note... it is not Max that did the twin thing, for it was you that provided double eggs to be fertilized. This will be our secret ;)

As a mother of Twins me-self I can honestly say they are the most wonderful blessing and the greatest joy of my life. My prayers are with you!

Essentially Me said...

Congratulations!! I love twins!!! I'm a bit biased as there are twins in my family though ...

patches said...

So I'm thinking maybe you haven't tapped into the full potential of this super Egyptian, pharaohesque sperm thing. Maybe it has alternative uses as laundry detergent or anti-aging cream...Anything that effective should be shared with the masses.

evercurious said...

hmmmm.Are you going to learn their sex or wait it out? I am so thrilled for you.

Ron said...

Hi Diane!

Sorry for getting your FABULOUS news a day late, but....

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

OMG....TWINS!?!?!?!?

You and your hubby must be bouncing off the walls with excitement!!!

I'm so happy for you, Diane!

YEPEEEEEEE!

Ron said...

P.S. and I also just noticed that you're moving to Barcelona!!!!

Never been...but it's a place I know that I would love!

Congrats on that too, Diane!

Sizzle said...

I've been swamped so I am just now reading the news. OH MY! Totally excited for you both and thinking good thoughts.

Dan-E said...

i know some couples whose first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage. i'm telling you this because each one of those couple are parents to at least two beautiful kids now.

sure it's early but that's no reason to not express optimism. and you have friends (virtual and otherwise) that are there for you every step of the way.

(of course, this might mean no more martinis for a while... what are going to call the blog now??)

Lavender n Latt├ęs said...

Awww...congratulations! I'm very happy for you!

G in Berlin said...

Still beaming with happiness for you, and so is the German!
Why not live every day to the fullest? Happiness is here and you should feel every second of it.

Chica said...

Beautiful beautiful beautiful. I am genuinely touched and happy for you. And I love that Max is walking around so pleased with himself! xx

Andrea said...

You'll be busier than you've ever been in your whole life. But somehow, I don't think you're going to mind at all :)

Such wonderful news even I can't stop smiling for you.

juz said...

ohh - twins! Congrats!!

I learnt the hard way not to hide a pregnancy until it is 'safe' to let people know.

Enjoy every minute of it - and share it with the world!

xo

karey m. said...

moment to moment...that's what it's all about.

rooting for you four...

A Touch of Dutch said...

Yes! Keep up the blogging about your pregnancy :-) It will indeed be a big help to someone out there someday. Maybe even myself.. Never know! And, again, congratulations!

AmyD said...

That's an AMAZING thing. And I'm glad you've shared this wonderful news with us. I just means there are more prayers being lifted on your behalf...mine won't stop anytime soon. Congrat again, my friend. (((HUGS)))

Jennifer said...

I am so very excited for you. What wonderful news to have and to share right at the holidays! Looks like the words Happy New Year will take on a whole new level of meaning for 2009!!