Max and I have certainly enjoyed the last three months. Spring and summer in Europe have been lovely. We toured many beautiful sites, visited six countries in two months, and spent quality time with both our families. Good weather and lots of activity helped ease the feelings of sadness and doubt I had been experiencing following my miscarriage a few short months ago.
Eased, but not erased…
Friday, the final day of holiday in Greece, I received an e-mail with the subject line “Big news." In it, a friend announced she was expecting her first child in December.
Ordinarily, I revel in my friends’ successes and should have felt nothing but joy on this occasion. But while I was happy for her, the news also brought unexpected heaviness to my heart. I realized that had my pregnancy continued, I would have delivered in December, too.
These feelings will pass eventually. But until this time comes, I will seek refuge in summer distractions, my family’s continued visit, and the promise of future adventures.
7.21.2008
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Ugh, I sort of feel your pain. After a miscarriage it seems everyone in the world is pregnant, even men. It will become easier with time.
that is hard to hear. hugs.
I'm sorry, Diane. Did she know about your miscarriage? I hope not, but even if she did, she probably didn't mean to upset you.
Aww sister, you're just human. We understand and appreciate you for it.
Sending you lots of hugs ...
Hugs
Oh Diane - I'm so sorry. I know it's not easy.
My thoughts are with you.
Hope you're having fun with your family!
Hope all is well and that space in your heart is filled with love soon.
Sending you a big hug. Hang in there...
That must be so tough, sweetheart. I am sending love and good thoughts your way.
Cxx
Such bittersweet news for you. You have every right to fee wistful. Allow yourself to feel it, and then find a way to move past it. If you don't, it will always come back to visit... (((HUGS)))
Take your time, take your time.
Grief can't be hurried.
I am sorry. Some things you never get over. I am sure your friend would understand.
Wish I knew what to say. Feeling hurt is natural, given what you've been through. I hope the brightness of heart will return to you.
I know this sounds cliche but like everything and anything that tugs at the heart, it takes time to recover. And as long as you're still taking steps forward, things are going in the right direction.
xoxo
Sorry to hear about this. I am sure that it is not easy.
I think it's good -- and very brave -- that you are writing about how you’re feeling. So many women don't really process the loss. Hang in there. It will get easier.
Was just thinking about you!
So I came to tell you that I was thinking about you :)
Oh Diane... what a difficult time. I admire your honesty in writing this- I think that it would be very easy to pretend that you feel nothing but joy, but the fact that you have these other feelings just proves that you are human. You are right- I do believe these feelings will pass. And until that day comes- know that I'm thinking of you and wishing you many more lovely summer days.
I am so sorry. I don't think your friend realized.
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